=: So....uh...HEY.

FAIL. SMH.

I tried guys...I really did...for like two days.

So, update for now then haha. Well...I haven't been home in over 2 weeks which isn't all that surprising seeing as I have had no time to even sleep let alone drive.

Also, the weather for the time being has decided that instead of the warm weather I keep hoping for, let's just dump a whole lot of snow...over 12 inches...so much so, that they have to cancel school...twice.

....SERIOUSLY?

What is even going on with this weather *insert sassy eye roll here*.

So, my mom flew out to Portland to be with my dad for a little while, and I miss them....tremendously.

That's really pathetic seeing as she has only been gone for two weeks. Now as for my dad and dog, those are different stories. Dad left before my winter break even finished, and since I haven't been home since winter break, I haven't seen my puppy in over a month.

IT. SUCKS.

Also, we (meaning Mom, Dad, and I) can't STAND leaving our puppy at home alone, but we had to seeing as: I am in college, Mom and Dad are in Portland, and there is NO WAY we were putting him on a plane or in a hotel. NO.

So, Henrry has been taking care of him.

I miss him....A LOT...like...to the moon and back.

I've noticed I have been more emotional lately, and I contribute that to stress, lack of sleep, and everything becoming jumbled in my life.

The weird thing is, I have been relatively...calm.

Before (over this summer), I used to fight panicky feelings. I would freak out and try to calm myself down. Now, I try to stay calm and not acknowledge that it's happening. Now that I have typed that, it sounds like I have had a lot of my episodes. Honestly, I haven't. I have had a few, but nothing so bad that I couldn't work through it.

I feel like now I'm just mumbling. Currently, it is a Friday night, and I am in my warm, cozy dorm blogging. To be honest, I am okay with that. I needed a night to myself, and tomorrow, I am sleeping in. Lately, I have been so exhausted that I have almost fallen asleep in public places (like the bus, class, and while eating). For those of you who know me, you will realize this NEVER happens to me.

I am always hyper and pumped, but something about this week has just drained me.

Another contributing factor, I think, is that fact that I am a dual major. So for those of you who don't fully understand this, let me break it down for you.

An average college student will choose a major, most will throw in a minor or two, and certain students will go all out and major in more than one subject. For me, I chose English and French.

For a student who is only studying for one major, they need to take gen eds (general education courses I.E. 100 level courses, and 200 level courses). Then after passing the required gen eds, students start their major. For most students, this is somewhere between sophomore to junior year.

Now for me, I had many incoming credits (classes I took in high school) plus I took the French proficiency test. I scored fairly well on the test and was placed sophomore level French. I chose to take the honors section of it, and although I thought I was dying, it was so worth it.

But anyways back to the point, I am taking twice the course load to graduate within the same time frame as a person with just one major.

So for example, I had/have to take a few gen eds (Geography 104/105, English 102, and French 231/241). This semester, I started my English major, and next semester, I will start my French major.

While I don't regret choosing to dual major, I do get stressed out and easily worn out due to the work load.

My flight is officially booked for Portland over spring break, and I am excited and nervous all at once.

On a different note, I am an ally for the LGBTQ community here at KU, and I attended a meet and greet with Orange is the New Black's, Laverne Cox. She was FABULOUS.